I thought i have better control of my stupid moods but well, i guess, somethings never change and in the end, it always return to haunt you. So these few days, my mood has been so erratic that I feel so tired.. I finally figured out why while walking home just now.

Wanderlust. Yes, its back. My urge to disappear to different parts of the world is greater than before. An old friend's words kept coming back to me. Haha.. The wise old man said that "you are still young, you should try to do whatever you want to do now and have no regrets." That see ms like so long ago and yea, it was.

Anyway, i think im really kracy coz im seriously thinking of quitting my job and just go on with my much anticipated journey. Who knows where i may end up? It would be so fun! Tough too of coz, but wow...

 Simply A.M.A.Z.I.N.G.

Dear Binny came home yesterday. I finally saw her after what seems like months? Hmm.. Im not sure, anyway, my dear sis bought me 2 pretty girly tops(she's a sweetie pie at times:P) and brought me "My Lovely Sam-Soon" dvd to watch.

Well, you see... Actually i planned to study this weekend, to get started on my readings and all and yes, here comes the excuses. Somehow circumstances just kinda fall in such a way that i am tempted not to do so! Haha, amazingly, my mum did something out of ordinary and went to rent the "Paris Lovers" vcds too. So there, how am i supposed to study with temptations all around me? Im only human after all. And a very lazy one at that.

Anyway, I started watching "My Lovely Sam-Soon" last evening and hmm... an unpleasant theory comes into mind. Of coz, before i proceed further to explain what it is, i must say this theory has always been a well-known fact. Its just hard to acknowledge it. Well, this show is basically about a plump, not-so-pretty, poor and sometimes crude older lady who have tough luck in love. Need I elaborate more?

Why is it always people who are not so pretty, plump, crude and old lose out to those of their opposite? I find it hard to comprehend why is the society and people set in such a way that we just love visually pleasant objects/people. That is the sad truth and yes, time does changes that and people do look deeper in the end but...But!

Unfortunately, i am also a superficial human being.

Yes, I am in the mood to blog. That's what i told Dez and well, its just similar to the way whereby he's in the mood to write song lyrics. haha.. my dear talented friend. Anyway, Saturday afternoon found me lying on my bed, typing away. This is an unfamilar scene as it is quite rare to find me home on most sat afternoons. Well, i missed my room and i really have to start studying(not feeling very motivated at the moment though:P)

Yesterday, I met up with the w.gals and time passes too fast when you are having fun. It has been a long time since the 3 of us has been out together like this and its just a nice feeling. I guess i can finally & safely say that its not what u do, where u go that makes everything seem fun and worthwhile. The company is the most impt thing. A big wet,smacking kiss for Lyn n Yin! When are we going to have a slpover huh?

Back to more somber topics... my new workplace and job. I think i could grow to like what im doing since its quite similar to what i was doing at Ananda. The only different is the people i work with, the products and of coz, the environment. Im glad and relieved though, that Yilin is around. A comforting thought indeed!

 *Growing tired*

There was this jap drama on TV sometimes ago. I cant really remember the title of the show but this is the theme song of the drama. A lovely and romantic song indeed. It would be nice for one to have such strong convictions sometimes, dont you think so?

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Queen - I was born to love you

I was born to love you
With every single beat of my heart
Yes, I was born to take care of you
Every single day...

(chorus:)
I was born to love you
With every single beat of my heart
Yes, I was born to take care of you
Every single day of my life

You are the one for me
I am the man for you
You were made for me
You’re my ecstasy
If I was given every opportunity
I’d kill for your love

So take a chance with me
Let me romance with you
I’m caught in a dream
And my dream’s come true
It’s so hard to believe
This is happening to me
An amazing feeling
Coming through -

(chorus)

I wanna love you
I love every little thing about you
I wanna love you, love you, love you
Born - to love you
Born - to love you
Yes I was born to love you
Born - to love you
Born - to love you
Every single day - of my life

An amazing feeling
Comin’ through

(chorus)

Yes I was born to love you
Every single day of my life

Go, I love you babe
Yes, I was born to love you
I wanna love you, love you, love you
I wanna love you
I get so lonely, lonely, lonely
Yeah, I wan’t to love you
Yeah, give it to me

So here's me at the end of a long day, lying on my bed while typing away. The sudden sense of fatigue and disorientation just hits me and my mind remains a blank. All that remains is a dull sense of weariness that refuses to go away.

The lovely song *I could fall in love with you* by the late Selena is playing on the radio now. Hmm.. I guess most would say that it is a song full of sweet hope. For me, i find that it is a lonely and sad song. *Shrugs* Whatever it is, i cant really be bothered at the present moment. Note first paparagrph *Fatigue*

Anyway, i realised that i have a nice postcard waiting for me when i got home. It was from Mei who sent it from Milano!! Thanks, my dear! You make my day...kekeke.. At times like this, i dont doubt that im a lucky and fortunate person who's well loved.

*Sighs*

A Picture for Willy (Left) Note the crescent moon in the background.

Into the deep blue sea (Right) misses Lyn

Leisurely afternoon

With Yin n Peggy

I always believe that there are many phases to life, and this fact more often than not, brings me back to earth.. to be more realistic. Believing that, somehow, allows me to be more optimistic that bad times will not last forever. At the same time, it reminds me happy and good times dont always last forever so i must cherish those happy moments more.

Last thursday was my last day at Ananda Travel. Though i had only been with the company for about 3 months, it seems longer than that. Maybe it was the fact that i was able to blend in well with the environment and work. Well, it was a tough decision to leave but it seems like an appropriate action so... *shrugs* So there, goes a phase of my life.

Recently, i had also started on my degree course "Biz Tourism" at TMIS. Hmm.. I havent really started studying even though I have been to classes. Im starting to worry but of course, im not worrying as much as i should coz i still havent start on my readings yet. *Slack as usual*

An ending and a beginning...*sighs*...Anyway, its been a long time since i blog so this shall be a long entry with plenty of updates.. bear with me!
 
Hmm.. I just returned from Bintan. It was a weird vacation and i shall differ from commenting much. Beautiful beach and sea though, not to mention the starry nights that resembles the pic of a galaxy.. but.. too bad it was monsoon season. Also, I recalled with guilt that i had a promise with dear willy that we will visit Bintan together.. no, i didnt forget eventually. I will make gd my promise in time!

Ok, so then, yesterday i recieved a call from Jensen. Im so surprised as i dont know why he calls. Apparently, he was at the airport and on his way to yet another training in Thailand. The poor guy was complaining about how depressing it is and i think it grew to become some sorta tradition for him to sms me b4 he goes off to these tough sessions.

Well, I was happy to recieve his call and hearing him goes on and on brings a smile to my face. The smile lingers on.. *hope he's doing well*

Sinni is back! Im thrilled! I have been waiting for her to return since she left last May. She may be returning to Sunny Hols to work. Anyway, we met up today and hearing Alice talk about the gossips and stuff over at that place makes me reminsces on how Sunny Hols is always so interesting and full of life. Haha, that plus the fact that Sinni could be returning, gives me just a tad of long-to-return feeling. Of course though, its not possible at this point in time.

Well, we had dinner with my Shifu(dear pam) and Alice's hubby at long beach restaurant at IMM. My first time there and its amazing how much we ate! How time flies when u are having fun and with people you feel affections for.. love the gals so!

And now, my compliments to Dez. I do love the song "Sway" and thank u for asscociating it to me! Miss you so, let's meet up soon!