She
May be the face I can't forget
The trace of pleasure or regret
May be my treasure or the price I have to pay
She
May be the song that summer sings
May be the chill that autumn brings
May be a hundred different things
Within the measure of a day
She
May be the beauty or the beast
May be the famine or the feast
May turn each day into a heaven or a hell
She may be the mirror of my dreams
The smile reflected in a stream
She may not be what she may seem
Inside her shell
Last night, as I was settling comfortably in my bed, ready to be lulled off to dreamland, I heard this radio advertisement for an up-coming movie "40 years-old virgin". There's this dialogue where a man was talking to another man and he said, " how can you get to 40 years-old and still be a virgin?!"
This got me thinking.... A 40 years old man who's unmarried will probably be labelled as a bachelor whereas a 40 years old lady (regardless of the success in her career) will always be labelled a spinster directly or behind her back. Isn't that unfair? Time and evolution may have changed a lot of things in the past few centuries but when you get down to the bottom of things, well, let's just say that some things never changed.
I find it weird how in the first place man were given the upper hand and the higher privilege whereas the woman fade to be the backdrop. Of course, many would argue that it's not so bad to be the backdrop after all the males had so graciously come up with this saying, "The woman behind the successful man is his key to his success afterall". Therefore, once again, the female species have to be grateful for that high praise?
I wondered if.. at a very long ago, there was a male tribe and female tribe and both had been on opposing end. One day, they decided that staying together with harmony would ensure peace in their environment and help preserve their lifeline, that's why they had a competition to determine who shall be the head of family and so this tradition of life evolves and is carried to this very day of the 21st century. Then, the men were probably grateful to the women's hardwork and support and good sportmanship attitude(to accept that they lose and carried out their part of the deal) that the previously mentioned phrase of "the woman behind the successful man" was created.
Could that be? Could that be? haha.. Don't get me wrong. I'm not one of those crazed-eyed feminist who hates man. On the contrary indeed, i would prefer a good view anytime of the day. ;) Oh well, im just seeking for a balance and fairness. Somehow, the tip of balance is always tilting to the male species, don't you think so?
I used to have a classmate who has funny ethics and really creative teachers. So happens that my unfortunate ex-classmate got more than one of these teachers as his form teacher when we went into different streams in sec 3 n 4.
Now, this friend of mine don't walk. He swaggers. Or should i said swaggered? Those were the days when "swaggering" for some unfathomable reasons seemed to be appealing or cool to most. :P Anyway, my friend loves putting his hands in his pockets wherever he goes.
Dez reminds me of this joke that we always talked about when having a school reunion. Well,there was this teacher who remarked upon seeing my friend... dear Mr XXX putting his hands in his pockets again. She said something like "Don't worry, its still there". Everyone laughed.
For those of you who don't understand, what she was referring to was a certain part of the human anatomy that may be too small or she intended to calm the student's ceratin fear of loss. or maybe both. :P So dez, that's your answer for putting your hands in your pocket. haha. Good luck ya. n a word of advice.. "Dont worry, it's still there!" wahhaahhaahha.
As i was walking sluggishly across the road on my way to work this morning, i noticed a woman walking in front of me and her hands were clenched as she walked. Another person walked past and she walked with her palms open and arms swinging. That's what the majority of people does, i supposed. But, there are quite a few who walked with their fists clenched. Hmm.. does it means anything? Is it some kind of body language that can explain certain characteristic/behaviour traits? I have absolutely no idea at all. It is interesting though, the little things in one everyday's life that explains major stuff if you care enough to look and wonder, don't you think?
So, do you walk with an open palm or clenched fists?
Okie, so yday I went downstair to buy dinner. Something that is not very usual/normal of me to do. Why? Firstly, because of my "supposedly-ongoing-but-n ot-really-going-on" DIET and 2ndly, because im always too lazy to go and buy my own food. (*I may forget to add that i am spoilt but you guys know it anyway*)
Anyway, yesterday i went downstair to buy dinner and i was wearing my new nerdy huge specs(the purple with white stripes one) and guess what? Bad karma! I didnt know that there would be a young, cute looking guy helping out at a certain western food stall at the S11 coffeeshop, do I? What a nightmare. Argggh!
I refused to dwell on my nerd look any further. Bleah!
I know this sounds melodramatic but i feel like a quarter-life crisis is about to descend on me. It may be because in about one month time, I will be 21. Everyone deemed 21 as turning into a full grown adult. I wonder who came up with this theory. I hate to admit it but i still feel like a terrorized little gal deep within. I am afraid of many things and these things keep coming back to haunt me as time keeps moving forward at a faster pace.
Many people around me always commented on how young I am. I do not think so. I feel like time is running out or maybe i am just being over-paranoid. I read a book recently on colors defining your personality and i found out that i am a green color personality person. No surprise that and it seems like the theories that the author had included, just about covers all aspects of me. Not that I am not proud of the fact that i am green. However, something that is very true keeps coming back to me and i am wondering if that is a good point after all.
It probably isnt and i should make an effort to try to change but i cant really be bothered to coz i like me. Real arrogant or narssistic of me but anyway, that one point that i was mentioning is that green happens to live in the past or the future. That's not very good huh. While i am not obsessing over the past, i am building castles in my dream world future. Im not someone who accepts reality well. I understand yet I turn a blind eye sometimes.
Well, i believed that that is why i am getting depressed after meeting up with old friends whom we used to be close to ,but now, i have to ask "how are you" when we meet. That is why i get depressed after a night's dream of a well-liked aquaintance of 8 years that has not been developed into a friendship. That is why i get afraid of my life being stagnant at this stage and that i wont dare to step forward towards my dream when the time comes. That is why i no longer know what career path i want to take in life. That is why i think a quarter life crisis may be coming and its time for some changes again.
Maybe I think too much. It sure as hell doesnt feels good though.
The Old Guitarist, 1903
If thou must love me, let it be for nought Except for love's sake only.
Do not say, I love her for her smile, her look, her way of speaking gently, for a trick of thought that falls in well with mine, and, certes, brought a sense of pleasant ease on such a day.
For these things in themselves, Beloved, may be changed, or change for thee- and love so wrought, may be unwrought so.
Browning, Elizabeth Barrett
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She
May be the face I can't forget
The trace of pleasure or regret
May be my treasure or the price I have to pay
She
May be the song that summer sings
May be the chill that autumn brings
May be a hundred different things
Within the measure of a day
She
May be the beauty or the beast
May be the famine or the feast
May turn each day into a heaven or a hell
She may be the mirror of my dreams
The smile reflected in a stream
She may not be what she may seem
Inside her shell
