She
May be the face I can't forget
The trace of pleasure or regret
May be my treasure or the price I have to pay
She
May be the song that summer sings
May be the chill that autumn brings
May be a hundred different things
Within the measure of a day
She
May be the beauty or the beast
May be the famine or the feast
May turn each day into a heaven or a hell
She may be the mirror of my dreams
The smile reflected in a stream
She may not be what she may seem
Inside her shell
For a moment there...i wonder if that is how the end of world will look like. Darkness setting all around and people rushing to get home and contacting their loved ones (or so I thought) on their mobile phones.. im not sure where the thought come from (too cynical/sadistic?) but I haven’t seen such darkness before yet I felt strangely calm (im afraid of darkness btw)..
Well, im safely home now and the lights are back..and I felt slightly disappointed..Here’s what happened.. There was an island wide black-out and my area happened to be one of the area to be hit and I had to climb up 15 storeys of steps in darkness..but luckily I met some kind woman who stayed 3 storey above and she went up the stairs with me..by which, halfway through, we met my parents and eldest sis..
Den’, I bathed in the dark bathroom dimly lit by a single torch light but it was strangely comforting.. my mind kinda wanders and I was thinking if that’s how people in the past used to be? The more primitive past where everything seems simpler and that set mi thinking of how good it wud be if things just remain that way.. then, I wouldn’t have to go for work tomorrow!~ lolz.. fat hope huh?:p
Haha.. dreaming again how nice it would be if people do not have to work huh? think too much okie..i guess im outta here..have a gd night ppl..it’s the 13th night.. 2 more nights bfore it becomes a full moon..so enjoyz the moonlight;)
Its weird how sometimes the past that u thought u had it buried deep could come back to haunt you at a time when u least expects it..And it just sorta tap u so innocently on the shoulder and when u turn, it kinda hits u full-force in your face and you just feel so disoriented and unbalanced..
N that's when you start to wonder.."Havent I been through this once too many times and gotten over it?" Questions start emerging, doubts start to surface and confusion is not so far off.. Sometimes, we thought we had forgotten and lost but all it took was a mere few words and it just hits u right in your face..its not that simple afterall..
It's always a big question mark when we comes to this. But well, anyway..everyting's in life is always so ironic.. nothing is clear-cut and simple..coz if it is, we'll probably not be content about our life anymore.. Humans are just so contradicting huh? *sigh* well den, guess theres nothing we can change and im not so sure if we would want to when we really get down to it so..Enjoy the times of our lives while we can :wink: Looking for Ever After? *keep dreaming:P*
Yaawnz..hi, guys! 0048 n im still awake! keke..coz tomorrow is rest day!yay yay! well..work is piling and im learning more n more things each day but i seems to be groping blindly in the dark coz still very blur on lots of things..when have i becum so slow? oh my! Cannot slack..i mux prove that i can coz i can! Grr.. oh! forgot to add..the other new gal came for one day den the next day morning she quitted le..i dun have any comments though..such things happen..*shrugs* well den..work other den b eing stressful..i like it coz time seems to fly by..i dun feel bored bout it..:D hee..
Anyway, yday was Taiyuan's bday..my oni so-called *bro* haha..went to his house for a small gathering and its good to be able to see some old friends and it feels good to be able to chat with them just like where we left off since we last met(which is eons ago!) and the feeling is..well..i dont know how to descirbe..jux familar, gd and qin qie gan, i supposed.. Dimples
i composed a short poem of how im feeling everytime i look back to the past at things that i have done and gone through..friends that i had met and well..here's part1 of Reflections:
Years later, upon this very day, will we still be the same as we are now? would we have changed beyond recognition.. or would we still possess the essence that make us distinctively us? would the bond still exists or would the threads of fate loosen as time goes by? This bittersweet pang that i feel in my heart everytime i look deep inside me, reflects the nostalgia for memories that are sketches, etched into my mind, heart and soul.. the you and me of today exists not but merely a few candlelights.. Beauty molten in a few hours just as of life and its beauty; luxuries and joys.
hi guys! i havent been blogging recently coz im just so-so-so lazy!i realised working can be tiring even if u dont do anything and by the time u get home..u jux dont feel like doin anything except slump upon a soft,comfy sofa/bed..oh! btw..im now learning amadeus..at least im startin to learn something constructive..hee..*stressed* trying not to think*
Now, i unds why so many working adults does not seem to have much life..coz they are all so busy working and for those who are married..i guess things are even worst huh? *horrified* pls pls..i dont wanna become one of those no-life workaholic..bt on one hand, i dont mind being a workaholic..haha..am i makin sense? well, i supposed i am and for those of u who noe mi, i know u'd unds huh:p
Anyway, today got another new collague join us and im glad coz at least there's still someone with me..*sigh of relief* hope everything goes well in tis area ba..i hope i dont think of quitting..haha *commitment freak* i missed all my frens..those from school..those tt went into ns..each and everyone..*sigh* well, the past mon, i met up with yin and lyn and we did some catching up..
Haha..we jux spent 3 hrs ++ gossiping and updating and it jux feels so gd to be able to see and talk to them..miss them alot really..haha..but as usual..*Verbal Diarrheoa is what u get when u lump us 3 together..oh boy! when can i c ya guys again??hee..den probably we can choose the victims of our topic for next time..oops! lolz..
Yday, my colleagues were talking about the smell of babies and how they really issed their babies when the infant is not with them..and tt they will cry sometimes when they miss their babies too much..that along with other stuff tt kelvin said a long time ago made make ponder over a certain* issue and i have been wondering recently..*tentative stage* so shall not mention too much first..next time still thinkin den ask bout what you guys think..haha
okie..i think i crap too much and typed too long an entry..im gettin tired too..have to stress on what to wear tml** since when have u all seen mi stressed? god..its since the start of this yr..does tt mean im living more seriously and giving more serious thoughts to my life, striving for perfection? grr..there i go again..crapping..haha..okie...guys, gd nitez, slp well and muaacks!
Hey there..How's everyone? I'm tired, deabeat, exhausted and wateva..fatigued..haha..is dere such a word? hmm... well, today's my first day of work..really fast right? yea..yesterday i went to Sunny Holidays Tour to apply for job as tour consultant and i got accepted and today, im at work..volia~ kinda scary to start work so soon..n i seriously miss hotels..sighh*try not to think too much* :roll: I dont know what's it with tis obsession with hotels..but i jux like it :twisted:
Anyway, back to today..I was so damned unlucky..i was late going out coz as usual, my wardrobe look like the aftermath of a war-scene and i jux couldnt find anything suitable to wear *faintz* in the end , i took a cab n.. when we passed by several hotels such as..Amara, M hotel, Swissotel^!!!!, Pan Pacific...and The Oriental*sigh*, jux felt a pang in my heart at what im missing out..I really am obsessed huh? Maybe its coz of sweet, nice experiences :)
KK..i will try not to divert from the subject again..anyway, first day at work was..well, like all first day at work..tough, tryin to fit in :? the manager asked me to just move around the place to get used to the environment and talked to the gals(my colleagues--all female environment bsides manager) and refused to start training me tis couple of days..sighh..jux wan me to relax and get familar, feel comfy in the place and it ended up wif me stressed coz u guys noe..im not tt kind of person who goes up to a stranger sayin hi and making small, nonsensical talk just to know the person better..but well, i think its abnormal of me to be complaining of this coz others will b enviable to know the boss to be that thoughtful *faintz*
Anyway, tts y im so tired..coz i was thinkin up of conversation/topics to start small talks here and there with very busy ppl who doesnt have time for it.. *faintz* Pls note the no. of times that im fainting..lolz.. haha..but actually, its not tt bad..im abnormal :roll: its reall not tt bad..coz d salary was within my expected range, the mgr looked at nothing but performance and they are even sending me for training soon..yea.. Amedeus.. julie..im goin for tt..lolz..ask chan bro to send u oso! den we can go tghter..jul6..
N its a very reputable co..which is a niche in thai tours..so even though im not in one of those big, famous co..at least tis is a small but recognizable and prestigious *cheers* The colleagues are all quite nice too.. all are tourism students..be it dip/degree/masters..oh god! its past 9pm..i need to go watch TV le..there's this nice drama on Channel U which is absolutely divine! Hao! haha.. kk..enuff of my crapping..realized i crap and whine alot.. pardon mi :wink: luv u all and tada!
Its really exasperating!! Yesterday, i was typing this very long blog and suddenly, just a small careless movement of my fingers and everyting is gone! Grr..Well, i cant really remember what i was typing and im too tired to write the same things over again..But anyway, just to update u guys..kekekeke..Chan Brothers did accepted me but the pay was like so low? i rejected them after a day of consideration..so...hee..actually, i hate rejections..u guys who know me well probably should know that..but there's kinda some satisfaction when i rejected CB..coz its like they accepted me even after i negotiated for a higher pay..^im getting big-headed^ :twisted: lolz..ignore me..tis stage wun last..haha..bright sunny day..my favourite type of day..u guys have a nice day!:D
Raindrops keep falling on my head~ lalalala..haha..its been raining since i woke up this mornz..its the day Lao Da is goin into ns..haha..i found myself wondering if the sky is crying for him and im amused when he refected the same thoughts to me just a moment ago..but not that amused when he thinks that its becoz he's god.. :shock: take really gd care *cross fingers*
Haha..anyway, bided him goodbye just..dunno why..think i will miss him..*smiles sweetly*prob coz no one to crap with me in the early mornz or late afternoon..maybe maybe.. :P the song *sweetest goodbye* came into mind but think its abit inappropriate huh? well anyway, *Raindrop keep falling on my head* came on after he went offline n he likes the song so..hee.well, nice timing!lalalalala~
It's a really wet day..was supposedly meeting Qiuyan to watch movie but!!! there's this other interview that coincides with our meeting coz the person oni said today and didnt even mention the time coz shes not sure..and well, here's Kaz waiting dazely, probably in vain..but i dont mind coz i kinda get sum phobia of working and dealing with not very nice people :x I probably shld stop here..b4 i start spouting more nonsese..heh..people, enjoyz the wet day~
Nice song by Phil Collins..the tune is so nice that i jux cant help singing along~lalala..enjoyz, guys!
Then I feeling blue All I have to do Is take a look at you Then I'm not so blue
When you're close to me I can feel your heartbeat I can hear your breathing in my ear
Wouldn't you agree Baby you and me We've got a groovy kind of love
Anytime you want to You can turn me onto Anything you want to Anytime at all
When you're close to me I can feel your heartbeat I can hear your breathing in my ear
When I taste your lips Ooh I start to shiver Can't control the quivering inside
Wouldn't you agree Baby you and me We've got a groovy kind of love
When I'm in your arms Nothing seems to matter If the world would shatter I don't care Wouldn't you agree Baby you and me Got a groovy kind of love We've got a groovy kind of love
One Big Family, With Aunt Alice, Uncle and Aunt Meiying..oh! i forgot to mention..pls notice my beautiful mummy in white..she's so beautiful..*she's the very best!* 060604
Kerry Sweetie
The 3 Sisters! Keke..Binny..my eldest sis is in the centre and we r covering the poor hamster behind us when our initial motive was to tk a pic with it!
Yawwnnz..Gd mornz, guys..0910 now and im wide awake, realising that even though i managed to fall slp, my mind was actively dreaming and working the whole night so here i am..tired with 2 deep circles under my eyes..not gd at all..( I think the expresso has its effects afterall..)
False Moonlight
Well, let's talk about yesterday..Hee..i was out real early to send lyn off(i mentioned she's going off to Taiwan to have a holiday with yin, didnt i? oh god..miss them..sighh) Anyway, while i was walking towards the mrt station(lakeside), a sudden thought flashes pass..and i was like thinking " how blissful i m feeling(still am)" as compared to last week when i have to work at that #$#% place..haha..anyway,,the day just gets better and better..lalala~
mm..well, after sending Lyn off..i went to meet Mei, its realli been a long time since we last catch up coz we were both busy with life's trival matters:P hee..anyway, Food, Shopping, Movie, Shopping, Food and More Food! lolz..very comfy..jux catching up on lost times..*smiles* haha..oh yea, n i caught a glimpse of Amil..i wasnt sure it was him but Mei was quite sure and so, i msged him and it was HIM!! haha..missed him so..he said i nv call him anymore..(in fact i nv did:P) hah..but sighh..so caught up with life's trival matters up until i gotten my freedom recently so...*makes resolution to call Amil*
Oh!! did i mention that in the middle of my very-nice-n-not-to-be-mis sed-n-i-m-gonna-watch-2nd -time-movie that Chan Brothers called?its a travel agency and anyway, i sent in my application last week (thurs= the oni day when i really looked for a job) Anyway, later im gonna go for the interview at 2..i dont mind if i get the job coz that means i get to stay in the tourism industry!
haha..the pay not as much as admin pay but den i still get the experience and stay in touch and get updated info of the industry so..haha..why not right? *cross fingers* it kinda clashes with my policy of not goin to local/family business but well..TRY FIRST! Hope the pay is at least 1300..if not..*dilemma*
Well, anyway, thats about all to my blissful day out..Started and ended with people i love..U guys are rare gems!:D stay well and have a nice day!
I realised that in some aspects of my life, some people, some manners, some situations and some relationships..i look for perfection.. Even though I'll probably not find it, i still cant give up the quest for something perfect or put it in other words, i don't think i can settle for less..not because im anywhere near perfect but probably because of some convicted thoughts that makes me alway think about.."what if?" Guess im scared of regrets..Well, hopefully i will get weary soon (i always do) and embrace imperfections~
Enjoyz~
"Congratulations! You're not perfect! It's ridiculous to want to be perfect anyway. But then, everybody's ridiculous sometimes, except perfect people. You know what perfect is? Perfect is not eating or drinking or talking or moving a muscle or making even the teensiest mistake. Perfect is never doing anything wrong - which means never doing anything at all. Perfect is boring! So you're not perfect! Wonderful! Have fun! Eat things that give you bad breath! Trip over your own shoelaces! Laugh! Let somebody else laugh at you! Perfect people never do any of those things. All they do is sit around and sip weak tea and think about how perfect they are. But they're really not one-hundred-percent perfect anyway. You should see them when they get the hiccups! Phooey! Who needs 'em? You can drink pickle juice and imitate gorillas and do silly dances and sing stupid songs and wear funny hats and be as imperfect as you please and still be a good person. Good people are hard to find nowadays. And they're a lot more fun than perfect people any day of the week. "
~Stephen Manes, Be a Perfect Person in Just Three Days!
"Sometimes... when you hold out for everything, you walk away with nothing. "
Hi, guys..its a beautiful morning!Bright cheery sun and blue comforting skies..at least i feel slightly better than yesterday..Okie, for those of you who doesn't know yet, I HAD QUITTED!8)
Yeaps..QUITTTED, RESIGNED, TERMINATED w hateva :roll: ..it was not a pretty scene yesterday when i went back to do clearance stuff..and to summarise, my dynamic boss is still dynamic and in fact, im seeing him in an even better light..he's my type/kind of boss and person n if ever there's a chance in the future, i hope our paths meet again :wink: & some bloody old man(HR Manager) was real mean and im still very pissed off which im tryin not to feel this way coz he's not even worth my time to feel bad about :x
Well, anyway, i still dont have a plan and im trying to delay the thinking coz its really quite hard to give up certain things.. :( such as interest in hotels for my studies or give up studies for my hotel's interest and actually, i know my actions had already shown that im giving up hotels for the studies(time being of coz!) but but! i still cant hlp but be tempted when i look for jobs in the classified..my eyes will look in certain column on their own accord..:oops:
Oh well, enough about these dreary stuff..last night i had a 4-person conversation on the phone..hee..our catching-up-on-lives-conf erence on the phone with Yilin, Julie and Phoebe..*amazed and grateful by technology* Well, its really great to be able to chat with them and certainly made me feel so much better..thanks, gals!*muaccks* Oh! n Yilin and Phoebe..hope the first get well soon and the latter adapts to the job well ba..as for julie..hee..no worries for her as yet:P
Anyway, i watched the Wedding Planners on Channel 5 last night and boy! Matthew McConaughey is so cute! i always liked him! haha..With the specs of coz..haha..okie..enough with all these craps..its Vesak Day today and i Wish All a Happy Vesak Day and Enjoyz!~ Young Girl by Carolina Iacob
The Old Guitarist, 1903
If thou must love me, let it be for nought Except for love's sake only.
Do not say, I love her for her smile, her look, her way of speaking gently, for a trick of thought that falls in well with mine, and, certes, brought a sense of pleasant ease on such a day.
For these things in themselves, Beloved, may be changed, or change for thee- and love so wrought, may be unwrought so.
Browning, Elizabeth Barrett
A Rare Talent: Artworks~
She
May be the face I can't forget
The trace of pleasure or regret
May be my treasure or the price I have to pay
She
May be the song that summer sings
May be the chill that autumn brings
May be a hundred different things
Within the measure of a day
She
May be the beauty or the beast
May be the famine or the feast
May turn each day into a heaven or a hell
She may be the mirror of my dreams
The smile reflected in a stream
She may not be what she may seem
Inside her shell
I realised that in some aspects of my life, some people, some manners, some situations and some relationships..i look for perfection.. Even though I'll probably not find it, i still cant give up the quest for something perfect or put it in other words, i don't think i can settle for less..not because im anywhere near perfect but probably because of some convicted thoughts that makes me alway think about.."what if?" Guess im scared of regrets..Well, hopefully i will get weary soon (i always do) and embrace imperfections~
