She
May be the face I can't forget
The trace of pleasure or regret
May be my treasure or the price I have to pay
She
May be the song that summer sings
May be the chill that autumn brings
May be a hundred different things
Within the measure of a day
She
May be the beauty or the beast
May be the famine or the feast
May turn each day into a heaven or a hell
She may be the mirror of my dreams
The smile reflected in a stream
She may not be what she may seem
Inside her shell
Pohutu Geyser in Rotorua The Pohutu Geyser is the most spectacular geyser at Rotorua’s Whakarewarewa Thermal Village. The geyser usually erupts every hour and shoots hot water around 20 metres high. Pohutu is Maori for ‘big splash’ or ‘explosion’.
Okie..Yesterday, i went to AsiaBiz..whereby there lies the guy who can tell me all about further education in New Zealand and BOY! i wanna go!i wanna go!i wanna go!Fly me off immediately! ZZrrroooooommmmm!
There were 2 universities that he recommended..one is Lincoln and the other is VUW..he said that i should try VUW with my results and oh well, i don't care which one..just fly me there!Hmm..so u see, now i gotta be more $$-oriented becoz i seriously need to raise funds..i don't want tis to turn into just a pipe's dream..N my aim is to strive for next year's march intake or latest, next year july's intake..
Well, i supposed that means i have to work very hard to get lots of $$$ and i have to quit this underpaid, made-me-disheartened-n-mo rale-low-n-unhappy job huh? i was considering it from day 1 and after trying it out for 2 weeks, i know i can bear with it but im still not happy so the thing is: do i really want this? Is it good for me? I find the answer to be NOOOOooooo!
Okie..maybe im abit biased and this is a big risk..damned big risk..but im young..i remember Kelvin once gave me the advice that im young, i can do anything i want..doesnt have to care/think too much about it being right or wrong or i may regret in the future and this piece of advice is coming in useful now as im finding so many excuses for me to justify my decision in quitting..maybe i should have quit right away huh?
Well, i tried..and i should have tried for another couple mth..but sorry, no time..i got new goals to look forward to..Maybe, after quitting i will be worst off than now, but right now jux the thought of not going back to that godforsaken place is jux pure bliss! I WANNA STUDY!!!!!
Yesterday morning, I literally rolled out of bed at 9.30am in the morning to check my long awaited results.. And there's really not much suspense..after looking at the results(so-so), i also did not have much feelings though i guess im supposed to be satisfied with it.,.but..oh well, humans are always greedy..haha..i find myself wanting more:P
Sunrise over Pololu Valley..Sunrise represents hope huh?
I really missed studying..yeaps..studying..i like it..i do not miss the school or whatever..juxt missed studying..n i have never missed studying b4..so i guess that's the difference when u studied something of your interest;) I checked out some overseas university and I emailed this representing partner of Victoria University of Wellington to enquire the details..boy! i do seriously want to go..its in New Zealand by the way, damned expensive and i DONT HAVE the $$$!!:evil:But no harm asking in advance huh? Hee..
Yday at work was boring..Luckily, Yilin called and we chatted awhile..Then i met 2 very nice guests; One of which is Mr. Mixon from the states and we had a really nice chat..Very interesting man! The other was the gentle but yet fun Mr Kitamura who's so polite as of most other japanese.. hee..well, after that came this not so nice guests at 2305 and made me have to stay back to 2340!:roll: and in the end i took a cab home coz i feel too lousy to take the MRT..
However, after a night's rest, i feel better and am able to think in a more enlightened way, look at it from the guests point of view and so i'm able to be more forgiving and understanding..hahaha:wink:It's my job anyway..so...*shrugs* Hm m..maybe i'll become a better person after this job..lolz..:P
I feel the Same yet i feel so Different all over.. I wonder if anyone is feeling this way..Guess I have not found my equilibrium and and tip of the scales are tipping dangerously, moving up and down..Sighh..May all things go well, everyone remains cheerful and healthy and the world be a better place..lolz..and WORLD PEACE:P Have a nice day, guys!
I think i have to admit, much as i hate to, that im scared.. Well, I have been having some nagging thoughts about whether I am making the right decisions and more importantly, doubts have been surfacing on whether is this what i want, honestly, and what of the future?
Is the hospitality industry really my final choice? Do i really like it that much? Am i willing to sacrifice so much for an interest, that im not so sure of as of this moment? It's dreary to have to think of all this mind-boggling questions that does not have any answer sheet attached to it..and i havent really been thinking about it becoz i refuse to be bothered by these doubts that started to surface.. ..
But... I know i have to face it someday and for now, i m just marching on forward (in a way, blindly) and hoping everyting turns out fine.. When something becomes important to a person; we learn how to care, treasure and take note of that matter, i believe that process is a meaningful and beautiful one even though it is painful and slow.. And the thing is, we all hold something or someone important close to our hearts..
Here's to all and as the chinese sayings go: 珍惜一& #20999;
Yawnnz...Today im working afternoon shift so i don't have to go out so early..so far still okie, made some careless mistakes but overall i THINK im still doing quite okie, 'slow and steady' is the word..but i wanna be 'dynamic', 'fast' and 'on-going'! lolz, Here i come!
Saw one guy in the lounge yesterday and i was told that he's in management training and he started out as a FDA(same as what i am now!) and he worked less than 6 mths in the hotel..some guys just have all the luck, as i was being told with this juicy bit of titbit, i was silently screaming in my mind: ME too! ME too!! I also WANT!
Lolz, last night i watched Troy with Dez and i really enjoyed the show! Brad Pitt was fab!I just love him so..another great movie jux like legends of the fall! Well, i have always been interested in Greek History, their myths and legends of Greek goddess and gods so that's probably another reason y i like it..Brad Pitt really looks like a Greek god by the way8) Guess i have to go get ready to go out, ciao guys!
Hi all!:D Its a really quiet night as all my folks are outta the house as of this moment..Well, today Yin flew back to Taiwan already and in 2 weeks time, Lyn gonna join her..really gonna miss them and miss *being with them* on this short vacation..oh well, there's always a next time, i guess;) *Trys hard to console self* lolz hee, work was okay today, im beginning to feel better about the job and probably that means i had started to adapt to it huh?:p today there was this really sweet old man from Germany who wanted to fax to his wife to tell her that he had arrived in town.. and he's really sweet and endearing with an air of gentleness(He doesn't really know English though)..It makes me wanna serve and help him 100%..*smiles sweetly*
Den, on the other hand, there was another infuriating guest and i finally understand why sometime service providers get pissed off..:x this guest was overbearing and he had that kinda face that ppl would like to smack..lolz..i guess this period of time will be a gd experience for me; to train my patience and tolerance of people and the environment among things huh? hee..
On my way home just now, i saw a few teenagers whom set me thinking ab out the past..There's this group of kiddos^ 3 gals an d 2 guys..lolz..kinda remind me of sec sch, were we that way before?
Time passes in a flash, memories fade like yesterday no more, leaving in its place..a vague imagery. Is it just an abstract of my imagination? Or did it really happened? And what of this nostalgia that i feel? *its not sadness im feeling, rather it's nostalgia for the old times*
Its a yr frm now since i last worked in ETS..the feelings i feel is so different from then, feelings 4 people i used to care for at tt period of time had faded, im a different person now, guess we all grow up at some times huh?
Hey guys..i havent been blogging these past few days not becoz i was too busy or tired frm work but becoz i do not know how to convey my disappointment in words.. Yea, it WAS that bad..
On my first day of work (mon), i almost faint frm the sight of the unkempt locker rm/changing rm..it was quite small too..totally different frm oriental hotel..oso, the main reason i don't feel tt gd about the hotel is that they try so hard to cut costs tt their standard of service is compomised n tts bad..real bad..
++ most of the ppl dere are all so old n most of them are malays so they speak malay language alot of times and i dun understand and that gives me the kinda feeling of wearing 2 totally different colored socks trying to make a balance:S no *qin qie *gan le..unlike oriental..but of coz i know its not right to make comparison..so...*bear in mind im not racist*
Anyway, did i mentioned that i really hate wearing make-up? Well, i do! N i don't undsterand why we are expected to wear make-up such as foundation and blusher and lipstick! :(*makes me cringe..everytime i put on those foundation and blusher, i feel so sorry for myself and skin..my skin feels like its under attack and my complexion may worsen anytime soon!
N, the thing about cover up cork-shoes..thats so ugly, unsophisicated and most of all, cruelly painful! my toes really need to breathe and after 3 days of being squashed in the black and unforgiving leather..im quite close to self-pity..sad right?My poor feets..
Kk, anyway, today is my third day of work and finally i was not dozing off, (sorry to say i almost dozed off 4 the previous 2 days)..I have been attached to Guest Relations for the time being and i perform my duties up at the Concorde Biz Lounge..i quite like it there coz its peaceful and doesnt have so many people.. Den, things were looking up today so hopefully..I can bear the time-line i set for myself to stay there to gain the experience i need..I'll need the EXPERIENCE!:x
Today, i look at the Front office manager and wondered if he regretted coming to Concorde instead of staying at Grand Hyatt..or was he there only to gain the experience to get him to a higher position.. :shock: Oh well, enough of my gripings..i really do whine quite abit sometimes so bear with me huh?;)
hee..i was on my way to work in the early morning and aboard the 240 feeder bus, they are always broadcasting *Days of Our Lives* soap opera that never seems to end..Warped irony.. Thats about all for today, tml is my off day so stay tuned for happy thoughts-blogs without complaints!or so, i'll try:p
The west gals get together again..lolz..today i met up with yin n lyn early in the mornz at 0900 for breakfast at Westmall Burger King and im sorry to say i was late (as usual).. the gals were surprised i was tt early *late* though, if u noe what i meant:p Well, den i got this really *interesting pillow of Shrek(mixture of green and orange) for my mummy, but Yin thought it looks awfully horrible..lolz;)
Den after that, we went to the temple to pray..I got a divination n i don't really know what it meant..d interpreter was slping and this new one didnt explain well..sighh..*cross fingers* n hope everything goes well..
Den after tt..we went a couple of places n ended up at my hm and to summarise, we had our girly fun..doing some girly activities that you won't normally find us doing..Don't think too far into that though..nothing kinky:p WE ARE NICE GALS! hee..
Anyway, today..or shld i said yesterday, since its past midnight now?anyway, 15th May is an old friend's birthday..someone whom i have much respect for..we drifted apart last yearbut i cant hlp remembering him today and jux hoping that all is well for him *smiles at fond memories*
Happy birthday to the U-who's-special!:D though i did not contact him to wish him..well, i hope my wishes for you to be happy comes true..live well, my season(friend)..
Universal by Tanner The World is universal as of the many different stages of life we live..we gain some, we lose some..we made some friends..we have to let some go..sad but inevitable.. *feeling sentimental n melancholy tonight*
Quote from Calvin & Hobbes (By Bill Watterson):
I think we dream so we don't have to be apart so long. If we're in each other's dreams, we can play together all night.
okie..latest updates! Concorde just called me and said that they want me! they want me~ they want me~ they want me! lalalala~
Hee..turned out that i made a mistake about the pay..its only $1,095..but nvm..under such a dynamic manager, i'll be able to learn alot! Ermm..but even though he's dyunamic, i scare i'd grow to hate him ar..lolz..its always that way..okie, dun worry about that first..so im starting work on Monday! i must Jia You!
hi all, guess what? swissotel just called..they are offering me the communication assistant position and the pay is $1,080..Sighh..i knew i would get the job coz the interview really went like a breeze..very nice people there indeed..but..its sorta like a telephone operator job so should i accept it? well, i told them that i need time time to think and managed to drag the deadline till monday..
I'm crossing my fingers for Concorde Hotel to get back to me before that..well, just now i went to Concorde Hotel for an interview..even though the place is quite inaccessible and quite old..only a 4-star rating..i was impressed by the good reviews given by their guests (in their website) and the place is big..i quite like it, i guess..
I didn't have much chance to talk during the interview coz the manager keep talking..and im impressed by him actually..he managed to become a manager within 3 yrs and i guess oni one word comes into mind if i were to describe him based on first impression: Dynamic!
Hmm..den anyway..dunno if i were be able to get the job anot but hopefully i can get it cause the pay is like higher..at around $1,195.. not alot to begin with but better den what other hotels are offering..well..*cross fingers* though it realli is not that easily accessible..i think i'll be able to learn alot under that manager..heh.. *Double Cross Fingers*
hie, guys, good morning! imagine my shock:o when i woke up this morning and find the skies crying again..this few days have been really hot..actually it was so humid that it was almost up to an unbearable level..but it's a very wet wednesday morning today..just on the day of the WESTGALS rare-but-promised-fun meeting, oh well, maybe it will stop by the time we meet..
Hee, Lyn, Yin n me are going to east coast to blade and stuffs.. this days I seems to be having an affinity with that place..keep going down and hearing ppl talk about it..hmm..
Oh yea..yesterday was the day i was supposed to give my answer to HolidayInn and just when i lose so much sleep trying to convince myself to accept it, i couldnt find the person to give her my answer..
Its really exasperating but well, after countless unanswered calls.. i jux left a voice msg and depending on whether she call me back anot then i decide..:? I still can't let go of the thoughts of better choices if i just wait n go for more interviews..afterall, i only went for three..sighh..i have a perfect description for this kind of thinking i have and the situation i am in: "Humans are never satisfied and that is to their downfalling." Real sad huh?
Anyway, enough griping about jobs..yesterday i went down to Orchard with Yining to the TMIS (Tourism Management Institute of Singapore) 8)and checked out their degree courses..there's 2 actually..
One offered by Southern Cross University and the other by James Cook University..The latter can be completed within one yr and only 8 modules(I've got exemptions and can advance to the final year) and its much much cheaper but i saw the modules and it's similar to what i had studied in the the diploma..
Den, the Southern Cross Uni actually oni gives me 8 exemptions tt means i have to take 16 modules and their charges are much much higher while lessons lesser than James Cook..but the thing is their modules look more in-depth and interesting so im deciding between the 2..Hmm..another dilemma though not as great as the jobs :x
Its still raining but the first glimspe of the glaring sun is peeking through my window as Im typing..i realised i typed alot..haha..too much to gripe and whine about..pardon me, guys;) oh yea..and just in case DA SHU happens to pop by(though quite impossible).. Below's the quote that i told u is meaningful..u guys enjoy too~
Quote Extracted from Gone With The Wind: (By: W. Somerset Maugham) We are not the same persons this year as last; nor are those we love. It is a happy chance if we, changing, continue to love a changed person.
Okie! this is really a horrible situation! guess what? MY fears came through..Holiday Inn called to say that they still want me and Swissotel havent called but that one is probably not what i'd choose unless they give me the supervisory position that they hinted about and i stupidly gave doubts to...Grr..and my tutor..dear dear mr tham havent emailed me anything about Marina Mandarin and i just emailed him twice coz i took such a long time composing the mail the first time round that i was logged out automatically..i guess this is what you called *clearing keystrokes* as mentioned in ET huh? see, i managed to learn sumthing from that module..i studied myself one!Grr..so how how?
And i just realised i how agitated becoz i started spouting nonsense bout E-t and i didnt even leave paragraphs..pardon me, all..yawnnz..i understand that i do not need to be in such a dilemma as long as i turn down HolidayInn offer but im afraid that i will be turnin down something which is good and i hate regrets!Ever since Mimi gave me those philosophy regarding regrets..i have to crack my brains so hard when making decisions..grrr..n that is so stupid in this case coz i shld be aware and confident of my own abilities to do better and be convinced that i haf the capabilities of finding something better so wat's stopping me frm turning them dwon?? argghh! *headaches*
Help, Help, someone help me pls?? i must go to the temple early tomorrow morning ar..god..should have gone earlier..Grrrr
Bliss!Pure Bliss! haha..i have been doin things tt i like to and have been longing to do for the past day and today and it realli does makes a big difference in doing something that u like and doing something dreary that you don't like..
Well, its freedom at last! abit scary to go think further for the moment but anyway..freedom!yea!! haha..i have been doin some painting on this wooden box that i gotten from ikea n i guess u can say im quite satisfied with how things had turned out:)
Hmm..yesterday while i was doin some thing..an awful thought occurred to mi and i didnt noe where it came from..probably just that it's an awful thought..i was recalling how some friend commented on its good to be like me to have the kinda heckcare attitude when it comes to relationship but den i was thinking what happened if its like chicken pox?
U see..when people gets chicken pox at an older age..its usually worser than those who got it young..its probably harder to get over that illness and will probably get more scars! n put it to my situation..what happen if one day i *so unluckily* falls for sumone and its kinda like chicken pox..u oni fall in luv with the One once in your lifetime and the later u falls..the worser ur condition is!
Horrible thought right? but i guess it can't work out that way coz i simply dun believe in the crap of the One n only in each person's life..I don't believe in love! okie..maybe not that i don't believe..more like i don't trust it so whatever~
It's a hot day today..my favourite kind of weather with the galring sun, pretty blue skies and abit of clouds ++ a gentle breeze!Good to be at the beach! o well..soon i'll go..soon...haha..okie den..have a nice day people!
:twisted: I am someone who seriously don't like loud noises..serenity and tranquility is much preferred..well, just about a minute ago, i almost drowned in the loud voices of my sis and dear mum..Women..*sighs* well, im a female myself so i'll try not to comment on the gossip level bt..grr...my sis is real noisy :( and nosey..but it's mainly the noise level..n im glad it has nothing to do with genes at all..or so i hope!heh..
Well, their topic was interesting enough :arrow: the contemporary men and women of the today's world..Dear mum started complaining and griping about how useless us-daughters-who-don't-li ft-a-finger-to-do-housewo rk are and of coz, my sis had to argue back and lead my mum into saying we can go support home-maker-husbands in the near future :roll:
It's not such an awful thought really..to be the breadwinner rather than the one who suffers at home and hafta put up with overloads of housework and cuts off with the outside world, becoming one of those dowdy housewives..but of coz..it will be better if husbands are the breadwinner and yet do all the necessary housework huh?:wink: lolz..guess lots of guys are gonna disagree with that ..just an extremely nice *dream* though..
I think the issue here is that women and men of the contemporary world no longer acts as before..some might still have traditional thoughts on how a woman is supposed to stay home to look after the kids and take care of all household chores but for those guys who still harbour this kinda thinking..i'd advise u to think twice!Pick up and wash your own smelly socks :evil: and this has nothin to do with loving you or not..so there!
To all the Contemporary Men and Women: Teatre Comic De Barcelona
*Ps: was listening to Norah Jones Cd..it's realli gd!Esp. like the tunes of :What am I to You..Enjoyz~
Finally, i got this page customized to my own likes..Well, i jux moved over here from upsaid--another blog site that decided to charge $$..money-grubbers they are..jux ended all my efforts for $$..grr..nvermind 'bout that..
Well, today I was SUPPOSEDLY going to this walk-in interview that i saw ydae on the Straits Times..but..i was procastinating as usual..n the skies helped me to decide..heh..its been crying since 8 in the morning and it must really be one unhappy old kid huh?--Dreary weather to be out! Stay indoors, cuddled up!
Tomorrow's my last paper of my last semester @ school and boy!am i looking forward to it!3 yrs just passed in a flash and soon, a new chapter of my life is about to begin..*cross-fingers-for-everyt hing-to-go-well* well, needless to say..i havent study! :shock: soon though.. soon.. haha..okie..i'll make more changes and updates when i'm free..
Enjoyz the cool breeze~
The Old Guitarist, 1903
If thou must love me, let it be for nought Except for love's sake only.
Do not say, I love her for her smile, her look, her way of speaking gently, for a trick of thought that falls in well with mine, and, certes, brought a sense of pleasant ease on such a day.
For these things in themselves, Beloved, may be changed, or change for thee- and love so wrought, may be unwrought so.
Browning, Elizabeth Barrett
A Rare Talent: Artworks~
She
May be the face I can't forget
The trace of pleasure or regret
May be my treasure or the price I have to pay
She
May be the song that summer sings
May be the chill that autumn brings
May be a hundred different things
Within the measure of a day
She
May be the beauty or the beast
May be the famine or the feast
May turn each day into a heaven or a hell
She may be the mirror of my dreams
The smile reflected in a stream
She may not be what she may seem
Inside her shell
Teatre Comic De Barcelona 