She
May be the face I can't forget
The trace of pleasure or regret
May be my treasure or the price I have to pay
She
May be the song that summer sings
May be the chill that autumn brings
May be a hundred different things
Within the measure of a day
She
May be the beauty or the beast
May be the famine or the feast
May turn each day into a heaven or a hell
She may be the mirror of my dreams
The smile reflected in a stream
She may not be what she may seem
Inside her shell
You had accompanied me through the years while I am still an insolent young student to the aspiring working adult to the current umemployed individual trying out a new e-commerce business. Thank you for being with me all this while and I do appreciate the comments and encouragements that you have given me over the years!
We may not have met and we may be separated by a large or several large continents, but thank you for listening to me and my babbles. The reason for this emergency-blog is not only for thanks and gratefulness. I need help! I need your brains, my dear friends! I need your inspiring ideas! And i need some encouragements! As mentioned previously, i had started on my own e-commerce site (an adult lifestyle store) and I would like to know what is the fastest, cheapest ways to create most awareness (in a good way of course!). If you know, please share with me your wildest ideas and most inspired thoughts and hopefully, I can survive for the next 3 - 6 months!
*A desperate cry for help from a troubled entrepreneur!
It is Barbie Doll's 50th birthday! Amazing picture up there which i got from an email. I find it an art of work and I am amused and just wanna share with you guys.
I do not think, old and fat is ugly. There's beauty in the eye of the beholder and in certain sense, the colors in the pictures appealed to me.
Live life to the fullest and happy birthday to all of you celebrating your birthdays out there!
I realised that I had been missing from tblog for a while.
While the past 1 month has been hell, trying to get my work and life in order, i can say both are still not progressing fine.
I had quitted my job and will be advancing into a new venture soon.
Hope to gain support from you guys from that, thanks!
Dont ask me why am i blogging when i supposedly seems to be complaining that I am so busy and have no time. Well, there should be finer things in life that we can take time off to appreciate even though, we are so very busy.
I enjoyed being busy for those that I have interest for but I absolutely dislike being busy for something that I do not cared much about. As much, it makes me wonder if I am doing the right things, staying on, when I could (maybe!) make better use of my time to do something that I am far more interested in and may perhaps reap benefits in the near future if I put more efforts.
Hmm.. I sound like i am ranting and i supposed I am but this makes me feel better and let me know i have a sound mind. That's me after all.
Ha. So. It's time (very soon!) to make a decision!
I had the simplest luxury to catch a bit of tv just now and in the drama, the mother said something simple yet familar: "Every parent will think and live for their child."
I havent slept in 40hours. That may not seems alot to others but I feel pathetic enough. Of course, I cant justify why am I still here blogging when I could just go to bed but i doubt i will be able to enter sleep easily or have a good rest. I hate this feeling so much.
Perhaps it is PMS, perhaps its my treacherous heart.
Princess said I have an interesting life moments ago, but i beg to differ. Perhaps, different people have different perspectives for the different priorities for matters and just llike the phrase "beauty lies in the eye of the beholder", im afraid life matters also lies very much in how we live it.
It rained very heavily today's morning and I was drenched. A thing of the past again. In my mind, various demoralizing phrases come to mind, to suit my dark mood. Again, it's my treacherous heart at work. Willy said, a thing of the past, doesnt matter much. I salute and envy that, coz it is a nonchalent thought, feeling and action which I had been trying hard to achieve. Treacherous heart. Throws the past. Throws the phone. Throws everything. I should. I shall. Not Be Impulsive again. Finally admiting. Hurting.
Sun rays come down as seen when they hit the ground, Children spinning around till they fall down down down. I wait for you: it's been two hours now, You're still somewhere in town, Your dinners getting cold. I rest my case you are always this late, And you know how much I hate waiting around 'round 'round, Bitter heart, bitter heart tries to keep it all inside, Bitter heart, bitter heart shadows will help you try to hide, Bitter heart, my bitter heart is gettin' just a little fragile, Bitter heart, bitter heart of mine. And then you come and tell me the same reason as you did yesterday, So tell me whats her name. Doo doo da dum, doo doo da dum, doo doo doo doo doo doo da da dum dum, da da da da dum, da da da da dum, da da da da dum. Bitter heart, bitter heart tries to keep it all inside Bitter heart, bitter heart shadows will help you try to hide, Bitter heart, my bitter heart is just getting a little fragile, Bitter heart, bitter heart of mine, of mine, of mine, of mine, of mine, of mine.
Today, I got a pleasant surprise when I got home and found a postcard from my dearesrt old friend, mimi. He remembered to send me a postcard during his travel and that touched me and I really felt happy for that moment. Good things come in small packages and I shall take it as a little motivation to push me along.. The evening did not get better in the end and well, here I am, 1214am, unable to sleep as usual.
These days, 2 songs get caught in my head and this is one of it.
Title: 4 in the morning Singer: Gwen Stefani
Waking up to find another day The moon got lost again last night But now the sun has finally had its say I guess I feel alright But it hurts when I think When I let it sink in It’s all over me I’m lying here in the dark I’m watching you sleep, it hurts a lot & all I know is You’ve got to give me everything Nothing less cause You know I give you all of me [chorus] I give you everything that I am I’m handin’ over everything that I’ve got Cause I wanna have a really true love Don’t ever wanna have to go & give you up Stay up till Four In The Morning & the tears are pouring & I want to make it worth the fight What have we been doing for all this time? Baby if we’re gonna do it, come on do it right All I wanted was to know I’m safe Don’t want to lose the love I’ve found Remember when you said that you would change Don’t let me down It’s not fair how you are I can’t be complete, can you give me more? & all I know is You got to give me everything & nothing less cause You know I give you all of me [chorus] I give you everything that I am I’m handin’ over everything that I’ve got Cause I wanna have a really true love Don’t ever wanna have to go & give you up Stay up till Four In The Morning & the tears are pouring & I want to make it worth the fight What have we been doing for all this time? Baby if we’re gonna do it, come on do it right Oh please, you know what I need Save all your love up for me We can’t escape the love Give me everything that you have & all I know is You got to give me everything & nothing less cause You know I give you all of me
Today, I gave myself a prolonged holiday from the long weekend. Being on leave on a Monday is such a pleasurable induglence.
The simplest pleasure of meeting up with a good pal to enjoy good food and share lovely bits of conversation makes a simple day like today, a satisfying day.
The little pleasures in life that keeps one going~
"Penyet" refers to smashed/crushed. One of the popular indonesian cuisines is the "Ayam Penyet"; a crushed chicken with fab chilli and rice.
On Friday, my colleagues and i went to this small restaurant at Lucky Plaza and I am surprised by how packed the restuarant is. The food is really very yummy! We tried a series of different kinds of "penyets".
This is my "Pomfret Penyet"
"Ayam Penyets" the more popular choice as always.
"Catfish Penyet" a fave among Thais (according to my colleague and she's a Thai!)
The pretty girls known as the Monkeys.. lolz, coz they're always noisy and hyper (our attachment joy)
& that's mixed nationality for you. Guess who's what?
This bird was nipping happily away and totally ignoring me (not that i am complaining) while i was at the Chinese Garden yesterday. These days, i always walk home through the Chinese Garden. After a day of work, the walk makes me feel better and lighter.
What do you do to make yourself happier at the end of the day or to relax?
Whatever it is, as long as it works its magic, i am glad for you. :)
I wish to embrace life. Colorful, beautiful life. I'd like to bring to life; the people and place around me. Please let me feel alive and that i am living meaningfully. Please let me feel more thankful for being alive.
I desire for good and undisturbed sleep. I cannot remember when was the last time i slept properly from night till dawn without waking in the middle of the night. Perhaps its a year ago. Perhaps longer.
I wish to believe in miracles. I wish that by trying, a miracle will really happen to me. I just want that one miracle... but. I do not believe my miracle will happen. I wish I believe in miracles.
I wish to get somewhere too. Somewhere desirably good.
My single most wish and hope and desire is to be happy. I wish i can grin like the picture below. I want to be happy.
Okie, so it's not Vogue after all, and its not exactly a big change, but well, i did promised a couple of you to put up pictures of my latest haircut so... there you go: Sometimes, i do wish to make a huge changeto my appearance so that nobody recognizes me. I guess that is a form of escape too huh? It's weird but people who does not know me well always have a wrong impression of me and i always feel indignant enough to protest: No, im not as sweet as you may like to think. No, im not as good as you like to know. No, im nowhere close to being an angel. I'm not shy, im just anti-social. Looks can be so deceiving after all.
Lyn managed to capture me looking at my worst, but well, there's the real me ba. Dearie Lyn + Me Wow.. playing with my toy again~ Getting prettier n prettier~ I look fat huh? The hair nest~ Purple dye with red highlights~ No effect hair treatment. ..da da da.... That's about all!
I was telling a friend that we are going to celebrate the birthday of a dear friend, Yilin, and my friend replied "AGAIN?" Hmm.. according to my friend, I just celebrated Yilin's birthday a couple of times not so long ago this year. That kinda set me thinking...time really must have passed very quickly, as the last time we celebrated her birthday; it must have been last year (obviously!). Anyway, I got this lomo effect toy to attach to my camera and its like a 3-in-one effect. Anyway, today's Yilin's bday so I wish my dear friend have a good time and may wishes come true. :)
Trying out my new toy~
Getting the hang of it while we wait for our table...
The English-Jap Chef?
We were at Ma Maison - Japanese Western Food Restaurant.
Illusions.
Phoebe, Julie + Yilin
*No prize for guessing whose hand this is!
Phoebe + Julie
Food finally came!
Tomato rice beneath~
Fish with very yummy potato!
Personally, i like this shot. :)
I have no idea why i always have the glutton look and Yilin.. you are right, the utensils does looks a tad weird hor? Keke!
I think this blog has become rusty from the lack of maintainence and updates. Well, February has been a busy month and it will be more so, in the coming week. For the coming week, there will be this MAJOR event in the travel industry in Singapore - NATAS TRAVEL FAIR and the next BIG thing, is my dearest's sis customery wedding.
Anyway, this entry is regards 14Feb, yes, Valentine's Day.
This year's Valentine, was particularly memorable. Not that it is because I have a special partner to celebrate with. On the contrary, it is because this person does not exists. Nonetheless, i feel very fortunate and loved because I have my family and friends around me. As usual, kracy me with my kracy ideas thought to sell desserts at a bazzar on that day, coz I decided to put my time to good use and to make more $$. All i can say is it's not easy, but my family and friends are around me. Thank you for your support! Though, the business didnt make much money and much energy was spent, i think the experience is a good one. That plus, once again, i think im reminded by god on how fortunate i am with you guys around. Thank you. :)
Below are some pictures taken on that day. I will set up another blog, which will documents all the desserts that I like to make and pre-orders will be made available. Till then, stay sweet!
Nope, this is not one of the cruises that i am marketing and neither am i onboard for a ship inspection. Early morning 7am this morning, found me at the Singapore Cruise Center. I was waiting to go onboard "Long Jie" - a cruise ship whose main business is: Gambling. Weird to find me onboard?
Well, it's an interesting experience and definitely an eye-opener to various aspects. Below are few pictures that i took.
On the top deck looking towards the bridge that connects to Sentosa.
I like how the sunlights reflects off the sea & how convenient a little ferry sail past.
I like the above quotation and find it to be very true. Friends are like estate; an asset where you can enjoy happy ocassions together, go park yourself when you are bored or become a sanctuary to escape when you face problems. I am lucky to be in company of old and dear friends last night.
<Pepper in a vodlka bottle, pumpkin soup in a Mug?>
<Chick Teriyaki & Measly 1/2 Portabello M'Shroom>
<Yummy grilled Chick w Avacado>
(Lyn & Ben> H ee..Hee..
<Ben & Me> *Famished*
<Devilish Chocs Mudpie & Impish Dodge!>
<Wahhhh! Apple Crumble delights>
<Animated conversation-A-lists!>
That's all, my friends! Sorry, i have to run off early; i promise next time i will make it to the "minds" cafe with you guys.
As I was on my way out to work early yesterday morning, i was lucky to capture a beautiful idyllic picture at my doorstep. This is what i saw from afar.
Beautiful, isnt it? I swear i did not do any edits. Many beauty lies in the eye of the beholder but i truly find this morning sight a beautiful and calming sight.
Somehow, this makes me feel that; it is really beautiful at home here in Singapore too. Even though i always lust after the sun in other faraway places and dreams constantly of star-gazing at other universals rather than here, at that moment, i really feel home is the most beautiful place.
Everytime i get my wanderlust in future, i will always remember this scenery. :)
To trade by exchange of commodities rather than by the use of money.
2.
to exchange in trade, as one commodity for another; trade.
Trade:
1.
the act or process of buying, selling, or exchanging commodities, at either wholesale or retail, within a country or between countries: domestic trade; foreign trade.
2.
a purchase or sale; business deal or transaction.
3.
an exchange of items, usually without payment of money.
Barter trade>>> a realistic exchange between both parties who can reach a mutual understanding and afford to exchange for benefits th at each party is interested in acquiring.
Sad Days Indeed by Asbjorn Lonvig IT's the end of the year again.. the last day of the year where most everybody will be celebrating for the year that they had spent and look forward to the new year with new resolutions, hopes and wishes of what would be better than the last. I am never one who makes new year resolution because i know i would never follow it through.
Celebrations no, Reflections on the soon-to-be-over 2008 yes, and i do look forward to a better new year at 2009. This coming year, I decided i should be more determined after all. It's not a new year resolution but i need to vow to myself that i will work harder for myself and to have a better year than 2008.
My 2008 2008 for me is really not so kind. In fact, if i have to admit, 2008 is the worst year ever that i had lived throughout my 24 years of life. Remembering one of my fave quotation from Ally Mcbeal somewhere along the following line: "The year is a meaningful one if; when you look back, it brings you tears of joy and sadness." Indeed, this year has been a tearful one for me. If i cannot show/say it openly before, at least let me offload now, at this last day of a long, hard year.
All i can say is... I hardly feel like myself.
The Old Guitarist, 1903
If thou must love me, let it be for nought Except for love's sake only.
Do not say, I love her for her smile, her look, her way of speaking gently, for a trick of thought that falls in well with mine, and, certes, brought a sense of pleasant ease on such a day.
For these things in themselves, Beloved, may be changed, or change for thee- and love so wrought, may be unwrought so.
Browning, Elizabeth Barrett
A Rare Talent: Artworks~
She
May be the face I can't forget
The trace of pleasure or regret
May be my treasure or the price I have to pay
She
May be the song that summer sings
May be the chill that autumn brings
May be a hundred different things
Within the measure of a day
She
May be the beauty or the beast
May be the famine or the feast
May turn each day into a heaven or a hell
She may be the mirror of my dreams
The smile reflected in a stream
She may not be what she may seem
Inside her shell
*The Pain*
'Co-op Chicks' by Tin Sign
Sad Days Indeed by 